I got married! :)

So Adam and I have been engaged since October. We have actually planned on getting married a few times in the past couple months, but hey, I am a chicken in that department. Although I know that I love Adam and I am going to be with him forever, I was scared. The thought of possibly having to go through what I went through with Brian was utterly horrifying. Not to mention FIVE kids.
I was sitting at the park on Saturday, January 17th watching all five of our children playing and Adam sitting next to me holding my hand and all of the sudden I felt this overwhelming peace. I knew that I could do this. At that moment all of my worries and doubts left my head and I was filled with internal serenity. Having five kids is going to be really stressful at times and I probably will be pulling my hair out, but hey, thats why there is a little white pill called Xanex, heeheehee.
So after this "revelation" I got very excited, looked at Adam and said "Lets get married next week." He looked at me semi-shocked and said ok. I had to just do it or I might freak myself out about it. I needed simple and relaxed, the thought of planning a wedding right now was way too much to handle. I talked to my bishop the next day and everything was set. We were getting married. My wonderful mother and sister helped me relax by setting everything else up for me. They are awesome.
Saturday January 24th came, the kids all looked adorable, Adam looked flipping hot as heck and I looked, eh, ok. The ceremony was short and beautiful with some chaos. Braeden was upset and was running around during it. But it was alright, NO STRESS! I looked into my soon to be husbands eyes and repeated my vows to him and the tears just flooded. Here he is, my best friend and I am lucky enough to have him forever. All of the pain and heartache that I have felt over the last six years seemed to vanish. Everything is going to be just fine as long as I have this man by my side. My sweet Savannah saw me crying and started crying too, she couldn't understand shy mamma was sad. I explained later that I was crying because my heart was so happy, finally me and daddy were married and we could all be a family.
After the short ceremony, we signed our marriage license, ate some of the delicious brunch Jen and my mom made and got the kids changed so they could go to our ex's. So I am sorry that I didn't let everyone know that I was getting hitched, but maybe you can all understand a little more now. :) We are going to be taking pictures and sending out "We Got Married" announcements so be prepared!!!!!!!