Howdy

So Jen helped me get all set up on here, thanks a lot sis!!!! This is all sorta new for me, but I am excited to try it out!!!! The past year of my life has been one full of bitter tears, fear, anger, regret, tolerance and finally change. As many of you know, or don't, I was married when I was eighteen, barely legal and barely out of high school. I have my two wonderful and stubborn kids, they are my life. I divorced my husband of four years last April, after a long battle and a lot of heartache. I have learned so much through the past year.

First, I have learned that regret is something that only brings you down. Sitting around wondering what could have been different, what I could have done better, it just causes more pain. I have figured it is better to learn from your mistakes and move on than dwell on all of the "what ifs". Life is too short to wonder and wish.

Secondly, I have learned that I am a lot stronger of a person, woman and mother than I ever thought I could be. I have gone through things that I never thought I could get through. Don't get me wrong, I have had a ton of support and at times I feel as though I am walking through mud up to my neck, but I am strong.

Thirdly, I have learned to believe in myself. No matter how many times someone trys to drag you down, be it mental, emotional or physical, YOU are the master of yourself. I am a good person, I am a child of God, I am a good mother, I am smart. No matter what has been chiseled into my head to the contrary, I can believe what I know deep down.

Fourthly, I have learned to believe in my family. My family has been my biggest fans, my strongest supporters and my best friends. As a teenager I used to believe that they didn't care. That is so not the case. If not for my family my children and I would still be in a horrible situation. They gave me strength when I didn't have any. They gave me hope when all I felt was darkness. They gave me love when all I felt was self hatred. They gave me forgiveness when I have made so many mistakes. They have applauded my achievements and supported my decisions. My dad has been such a beacon of strength, so strong and capable, never falling from what he believes. My mom has been my best friend, when I am sad or afraid I can call her and she will always make it better. Jen has been my blinders, always keeping me focused on what was really important and what was the best for me and my children. Daniel has been so kind and loving to my children, always protective of us. Sterl, oh my Sterl, he has been my rock to cling to, always giving me good advice, but telling me straight out when I was being stupid. Russ, he has been my confidant and my friend, so sweet and calm, never letting anything get to him. Thank you all, for everything. I don't think I can every repay what you have done for me.

Well, I think that is enough of that!!!!! I am excited to be on here and be able to communicate with my family and friends!!!!